Thursday, May 8, 2008

And, relived...

If every moment we live life we expect something to happen in our favor, then we are the saddest people ever born on this earth...I have realized the truth behind this...

Sometimes life's really harsh...even harsher than truth...
Life can really make you feel that you are the worst...you are the least lovable of the lot...the most isolated...most lonely and the most unhappy...life's sometimes like a tough journey over rocky hills...and your heart a heavy load that you just can't drag along anymore...Pandora's hope fairy is hardly helpful during these tough times.
I have felt this a lot of times...and along with it I have seen Pandora's fairy flying further away from me...away and out of my reach...

Sometimes these moments come so often that you just feel that you have been engraved out of all the negativities of life...moments when even your favorite music can't help...when even a deep breath doesn't make you feel better...and when even good memories seem painful...

Sadness and depression have a tight grip from which you just can't free yourself from...I have tried doing everything during these moments...laughing loud...talking to people...walking away from the crowds...gazing up at the sky...humming my favorite tune. Nothings helps though...

And, then I tried doing something that a friend told me...I tried making a list of all the things that I have...tried thinking of all that I have that can make me happy...
I realized that I have all the wonders in me...of seeing, of listening, of feeling, of loving, of caring...and of hoping...I realized that just like all the things that I don't have in life make me sad...I also do have a whole set of things that can make me happy...only that I need to find them out...

I realized that I can be happy for a lot more reasons in life...for a whole set of lovely things I have...than being sad for some of the things that I don't have...

And, that made my load a bit lighter...and my journey a bit smoother...
And, thus I relived...